slightly wonky

Yesterday was a fabulously warm day.  My son and I took several walks to soak up some sun and work on our vitamin D levels.  It felt amazing to be out in the warm air.  I was tempted to open all the windows in the house, but then I thought that might be premature. 

Everything feels like it’s slow going.  Every day, I hope for something I do to be “the thing”.  By this I mean, “MY thing”.  So far, what I’ve done puts a furrow in my brow.  Sigh.  Just the reality of where I am, and where I am not in my creative endeavours.  I love seeing inspiring works by other people.  On the other hand, it often leaves me with a bit of a pit in my stomach…knowing that I couldn’t possibly do what they do.  I know.  It’s supposed to be that way.  I have to do what I do.  BUT WHAT IS THAT?  I wish that I knew…

Here are some odds and ends from the past week.  Any comments?

I know.  My search to figure out what to do will be a lifelong one.  At the same time, so many people have figured out “what” their art is all about.  I’m not there yet.  It feels like it’s taking forever to figure out.